我现在过地很好, 请不要打扰

没有你在的日子有多么好
天空还是照下着雨, 花草还是继续萌芽
时间就掌握在我手里, 随心所欲
在这段日子所经历的事情
不是用几句言语就能廖廖带过
但敢肯定的是我绝不后悔
如果人生是一盘棋, 这将会是我下得最完美无缺的棋
回到过去? 那只能让我以现在的心态看自己的成长

=)

can you smell it? freedom is near!!! =P

n incidentally.. so are my exams =s

很好

Great bdae celebration. Nice, hot, sunny weather. Splendid, wonderful game of bball. A nice song to go with =)



- feel the heat -

人们

在走过人生路途的时候, 一直误会一件事情. 而最常被误会的事情就是..
人生的路途上,
会有很多的选择.
但是, 当走到人生的尽头,
回过头来看的时候,
会发现路其实只有一条.
而那一条路就是,
自己走过的那一条路.
没有走过的那些路,
绝对不会是自己的路.

谢谢你抛弃我, 谢谢你忘记我 =)

at the beginning

ha my colleagues from army treated me to shangri-la buffet yesterday!=) restaurant was "the line" and the ambience was really good=) foodwise, it's pretty not bad! worth what we are paying for (oh i shld mean what they are paying for me), n there were way too many dishes that i wanted to try out! dessert was the highlight for me! ha let myself loose for once n indulge on those nicely made n decorated savoury desserts!









ha heard this song over the radio while on my way back.. at the beginning! reminds me of anastacia.. like this songs.. gives the feeling of hope n endeavour =)

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

找自己

who knows you the best? do you think you know urself better than the person who knows you the best?

i dont think i know myself any better than a common passerby. sometimes my actions simply amaze me. i dont think i will ever understand myself, i am too much a complex person to be understood inside out. maybe all it needs is just a passerby's opinion.

i felt like a spoilt brat when my dad asked me how much i need for the first year of my uni. all along i had been self sustainable n i din want to depend on my parents. tt prompted me to take big brother's money for studies. yet, all my so called "self righteous" have been thwarted when i decided to take a u-turn. the few mths after ord have been realli mind-blowing.

08/05/07

hmm.. don't usually write about what happened in the day, but i just feel like writing something today, so here goes.. (bear with my ramblings.. haha)

i guess today is a day with mixed feelings =S started the morning with nothing by lethargy =/ went into lab to check tlc for reaction, when i had the hunch that it will probably fail even before i start! oh well, was instructed by boss to do, so suck thumb loh! had to go about borrowing chemicals and doing dilution for the tlc and all i can say is that phenol and aniline really stinks! phenol is darn corrosive and i hate the smell to the core! =S gave me headache for the remainder of the morning =/ n yeap, reaction din worked at all! plain old sm was retrieved once again =S was asked to do another reaction later in the afternoon..

so after lunch, gotta go back lab pretty early. this time, it was a more dangerous reaction, lithiation to be exact. gotta beg pple to help me prepare ether from the solvent dispenser and luckily lao da was there to help =) found it pretty dumb to draw 100ml using syringe and decided to pour it out from the dispenser.. haha wrong thing to do but no one saw! =P then had to get dry ice! was pretty fun trying to break the whole block into small chunks and finally experienced the burning sensation when u touch dry ice! (ha din use those special gloves) and in goes everything and rxn was started. then after that had to add in nBuLi. urgh! highly hygroscopic and reactive base!! n my dearest boss asked me to do the addition...tmd! was quite interesting yet scary.. needle was fuming when i remove it from the bottle and i was like.. oh gosh! oh well.. luckily there were no flames, no explosion or nothing.. life's precious okie..

n just when i was wondering why my sup was pretty frenly and willing to teach today, i got the answer.. he was asked by big boss to psycho me to take org chem instead of chem engine. urgh! so he went on and on about how fun n interesting org chem is, all the things that can be done n even showed me some of the equipments.. hey tt's a rarity! was stunned, surprised but not convinced! oh well, am touched n can see where they are coming from.. know big boss thinks highly of me and her intentions are good.. BUT.. tt's coz i haven drop the bomb on them..

urgh.. just when i decided to make the call, implications start to develop. oh well, i know my mind is set, just that i dont have the heart to tell.. urgh! if everything were to be as simple as abc.. if everyone aren't that nice to me.. IF

sunday nite!

Yesterday! another oac event! went for geokz bdae surprise cum celebration! turned out to be rather successful =) the shock look on her face was priceless! well turnout was great, cant remember the exact no. of pple who came but it was definitely more than half or maybe 2/3 =) walked all the way from coro to nie for dinner at the wine company. wasnt a short distance but it's the company that matters=) wine company's a pretty neat place, good ambience, food's okie and not too pricey (well tt's all that matters)! N opened a bottle of wine to share around but i think geokz ended up paying for it =) been quite a while since i last drank alcoholic drinks, taste nice but it's best to abstain from them! only took a couple of sips and boy i look red, like am blushing! not because i got drunk, but coz i got sunburnt in the morning! boohoo! and ended up walking (again) to botanic gardens after our wonderful=) cons' great to talk to, or probably coz am a chatty person! muahhaha! we ended up at symphony lake, reminds me of yltc =) oac lives in the heart =p

giving myself 48hrs to d-day.. give me all the strength tt i need

i hate this kinda feeling

after 2 long weeks, finally played bball today! yeah feels great to be playing ball! but am kinda disappointed with my performance today, din perfrom up to expectations. =( there's always this naggin feeling whenever i wan to attempt a shot and i hate this kind of feeling. maybe it's due to my injured hand, calf n weird tummy but this aint the right way to push the blame around. i need to have focus. i want to find back the kind of carefree feeling i used to have have on the court, to be able to think clearly with no distractions. searching peace from within, focus and spirit. only then i can improve. 禅. 奋斗. 心球合一

*only when the heart flows like river, can the shots leave the hand with direction*

你

你走你的阳关道, 我走我的独木桥! 我们互不相欠!
this is getting more irritating.. i dont like explaining and defending my choice again n again to ppl.. ppl who dont see the whole big picture..